Moby Grape

This is a great song by the best Bay Area group that never really made it, Moby Grape. It was written and sung by guitarist Peter Lewis, who happens to be the son of the late actress Loretta Young. Great singer, great musician, as they all were.

When I asked the late Fillmore and Woodstock impresario John Morris why the grape never received the just acclaim they should have he said that they were assholes and their management people (Matthew Katz) were doubly assholes and intractable. But I think their harmonies are CSNY, Beach Boys good, top of the heap.

The bandmates had serious psychological problems, Spence and Mosley both institutionalized at some point.

...And I'm so grateful I'm
No longer willing
To have her home
I'm so grateful I'm
No longer willing
To have her home

Anyway this is a song about betrayal. Have you ever been betrayed? I have. I have never really written about my first marriage, it was quite painful. My ex was apparently sleeping with quite a few people at the time in Fallbrook, just not me.

Including the alarm guy, another "friend" I rode bikes with in the afternoon and shared my innermost with and a few other fellows. At least these are the ones I know about.

She was working at Glen Ivy doing massages back then. One day she came over to the house with a girlfriend and I told her that I knew she was sleeping with a lawyer up there after seeing a few strategic moves on her part. 

She blanched and turned white, accused me of following and stalking her. Truth was, it was just a wild guess, one that apparently hit right on the mark. Her friend turned into a rage filled beast, haven't spoken to her since either. But my ex wife had been sleeping with a lawyer there I found out later.

War started, I took off for Desert Storm and Israel three days later. Hoping to die, honestly. She sent me pictures of her tooling around cruising in a bikini top in my convertible, trying to make me angry and jealous. I came home six weeks later and she left forever soon thereafter.

Thank god.

I probably didn't have the strength to do it myself. To leave. This was thirty five years ago. Loving and taking care of someone that is only capable of returning hatred and betrayal is a terrible lesson. By the way, I have always been a faithful husband, for whatever that is worth.

Life got better for me and I presume it did for her. She took me for all she could financially, quite successfully. I severed all contact. Took a long time for me to rebuild my life. Infidelity is not a big deal for some people but it was for me and it also took me a long time for me to trust people again.

Live and hopefully learn.