Broke down busted.

I am back from the bay, another tough show. Makes three in a row. I'm not sure how I am going to make it all work. Will try to take a breath and exhale, hope for a fresh wind from the west. But I am a little freaked out right now. Two day show, first day okay, the final day fizzled. But the expenses stay the same, a lot of money and it just isn't pencilling out.

Drove up Wednesday, stayed with brother John and family in San Jose. Kai's birthday, very nice.

Leslie flew up Saturday for a family wedding, her cousin. I couldn't go because I was working and then packing out. Did a family brunch the next day, saw some interesting comb overs, I will leave it at that.

Saw Dave twice, he looks a hell of a lot better, thought we had lost him two weeks ago but he now has the feeding tube out and is gaining energy. Know he has turned the corner.

Visited Steve yesterday at the hospice, saw Joey, could tell it was the last go round for L and the sad fact is that she passed away today. So sorry for the family. A very sweet person, loved by all. Seems to come in bunches. Have two friends with pancreatic on death's door and another with brain cancer. Not a great time.

I know others are telling me that they are facing similar straits. Weird coincidence or maybe just what happens as we all start to age? Got me.

Don't miss an opportunity to tell your people that you love them. Sometimes you don't get another opportunity.

Lynette Schwartz